Reach out for help please.
If you are feeling like you are at the end of the road and cannot go on then please stop, just for a moment and read.
I was at my absolute lowest after the incident I had and after speaking to my wife I called the Samaritans for the first time ever.
It really helped me and I hope and pray it can help you too.
Please contact them on the link below, they have a few ways to get in touch but if you are desperate then please call them on 116 123.
I hope you get the help and support you need but you must make the first step but it saved me, I hope it can do the same for you.
Samaritans: https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/contact-samaritan/